random blurbs

OK, so i suddenly went from having barely any MySpace friends to like 70 something!  Thanks to Facebook.

What a week its been, the past few weeks have been emotional for me, seeing all my friends leave for college, and me being left behind.  Ever since i was a little girl i've dreamed of going to Notre Dame (the local one), and then they closed, and so did my other dream school, Mount Saint Mary's in Hooksett.  WTH? So i had to start my search all over again, and topped my list with Magdalene (Warner) which doesn't really offer majors, Rivier in Nashua, and Franciscan in Ohio... that quickly desinergated once my dad died, because i knew going to that college was way out of reach and i wanted to stay close to home... then i started feeling called towards religious life, and was THINKING about it, that word will come into play later, and i tell my mom and my family that i was THINKING about it, and they were happy.  After HS graduation, i start thinking about college possibilities, since my dream career of being a HS/MS English Lit. teacher is still alive and well, i knew i needed to pursue that first.  So now my mom does not want any part in my college education, and i have to pay it by myself, which REALLY narrows my options down.  She thought by me saying i was THINKING about it, i automatically was going in and leaving the house within a few weeks of graduation.

On top of all that, we have my nephew 24/7 except Saturdays, which is fine because i'm beginning to enjoy having him around, expecially after talking to Fr. Marc about having him baptized, since he lives with us technially it is our choice.  Which is a good answer.  So i'll keep you updated on that subject.

Then i go to church one day during the week, and a family that goes to see my grandmother every day, comes up to me and goes "Do you know your grandmother is in the hosptial and will have her leg amputated tomorrow morning?"  HELLO!!! AM I INVISIBLE!!!! WHY DOESN'T ANYONE ON MY DAD'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY TALK TO ME ANYMORE, WHAT THE HECK DID I DO!?!?!?!  I almost walked out of church crying, but didn't, instead my friend Jackie came in and we talked about it afterwards. 

But on the bright side... My committee for the Breast Cancer Awareness weekend is getting extremely big, we have 7 members including me, 1 is out of state but she will be submitting her ideas and thoughts through e mail and i will read hers at the next meeting.  If anyone's interested in finding out what this is about, just let me know, the more help the better it'll be!


I'm done for now,


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    christian station

Missing You

I never thought it being your second birthday without you, it would hit me so hard.  but tonight, with dedicating our gig to you this morning, singing your song, well it's not really your song, but i dubbed it yours as it was the only song from your funeral i could understand.  Reading at 4:00... talking with sammie, who will soon be loosing a loved one, made me think how much of an orphan it feels to not have a father figure around.  Though you never really were there for me, deep down somewhere you must have cared.  Or else you wouldn't have saved all the money left in your life incurance policy and put it in savings to build up to close to 5000 for me to continue my education and fulfill my dream as a High School English teacher.
I've been thinking about you alot since the whole St. Patrick's thing came about, and expecially on the days leading to its closing.  i felt your presense there the day of the 9th, when i played at the all day wake, you were there and ddin't leave my side.
I miss you dad,
Happy Birthday!

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    Contemp. Christian

Ascension Troubles

Ascension Troubles


It’s Ascension Thursday already, before you know it, it’ll be Pentecost, one of my favorite religious days. I wonder who I’m going to read with at the 7:00 mass tonight.

Mandy, you’re head lector you ding bat! You can pick whoever you want to read with you!

Good Point. Katie Mosher was there last night so she probably won’t be there. Arlene Dupuis was serving last night, so it won’t be her either, and Bob Case would rather die than read with me.

Here’s a brilliant idea, how about you wait and see who’s there and take it from there?

Wow, someone’s feisty tonight. But it’s still a good idea.

It’s 6:45 and no one is here yet. Well… John is, but his wife is due any day now and I don’t want to take him away from her in case something happens…Ray Roux just came in, but he’s in shorts.

Wait a little while longer before putting the books out.

Now it’s 6:55 and there is still no one, I’ll wait like two more minutes, until Ray says to put the books out.

“Well Mandy, looks like you’re the only one.” Ray said as he came back from searching for Eucharistic Ministers.

Great, I’m the only lector and I have no fricken clue how to say that word in he first reading!Just take a guess. They won’t know either! Go for it! The Holy Spirit is with you on this one!


“…The Word of the Lord.”

See, it wasn’t that bad, and you actually got it right too! Nice Job!

Mass proceeded pretty normal, very small crowd, so small my voice was echoing throughout the church. It was like a Lenten weekday crowd. The 5:30 was balcony room only, so I wasn’t surprised when the 7:00 was dwindled down to no one. But I could see Sue out there in the crowd, and that made me more confident.

“Please join us in our closing song, number 9 in your green books, Lord I Lift Your Name On High.”

My gosh, talk about taking the easy way out you cheap skakes! Did you not hear the words of the second reading; was I not loud enough for you to get the message? The line said “You shall be clothed with power from on high, and you shall be my witnesses, until the holy spirit comes to you.” That is the line of the song “You shall be clothed with power.”







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    lethargic lethargic

A Relationship For the Books (Short Story)

A Relationship For The Books


It was a Friday morning and Linda was just starting her 12-hour shift as a taxi driver. A lot of people think 12 hours in a taxi cab has to be boring, but she actually doesn’t mind that much because she loves driving and she gets more money in tips. Her first couple of drives were the normal grocery store pick-up and drop-offs with the occasional doctor appointment. It was actually quite slow considering it was a Friday, but she was sure it would pick up later so she enjoyed the slowness of the day. Soon it was lunchtime, but she didn’t know where she wanted to go.

“Well, I do have to go home and grab some clothes for Mandy’s surprise birthday party tonight, so I’ll go home and do that first,” she said.

So she went into her house and went to her formal closet, since it was a dance type party and she wanted to look unusually formal. Linda was not one for dresses except for important occasions. So she proceeded to look through her closet. When she thought she’d found something she liked, she took it out and held it against her and looked in front of her closet mirror.

“Nope, too short.”

Next she took out a long red dress with silver sparkles. Last time she’d worn this was to a wedding she sang at back in June.

“Everyone loved it when I wore this one, they said red was my color,” she said out-loud as she placed it in her travel bag.

Then she found her red sandal heels, and found complimenting jewelry and make-up and placed them in the other compartments of her travel bag.

“Geez, that took less time than I thought it would, I still have over an hour for lunch!” Linda said as she looked at her watch, “now for the real reason I’m out, LUNCH!”

While Lind was trying to figure out where to go for lunch, it dawned on her that she was supposed to bring someone with her to the dance tonight, and she did not have a date.

“I don’t think they’re going to mind if I don’t come with anyone, but I should probably at least make the attempt to invite someone,” she said.

So she took out her male address book and started flipping through the pages, stopping to dial numbers of possible dates. A few of them answered but already had plans; some said they didn’t want to go. She finished calling and still had about an hour left, and being that it was so slow she could take a longer lunch than normal.

“You know, Pizza Hut sounds good, I think I’ll have it delivered too,” Linda finally decided.

While she was waiting for the pizza, she sat down to read the daily paper. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

“Now who could that possibly be?” she said, “I didn’t order anything, and all my friends know I’m working, and they’d call my cell phone first.”… As she walked to the door.

She opened the door to find an encyclopedia door salesman.

“Hello, my name is Bobby and I was wondering if you’d like to…”

Linda was half listening to what this Bobby dude was saying, as she found him so handsome that she was too busy looking at him.

Linda, what the heck are you thinking? He’s a door-to-door guy that you just met; you can’t invite him to Mandy’s party without even knowing him!

“Excuse me, miss? Are you still listening?” Bobby said, waving his hand in front of Linda’s face to grab her attention.

“Huh? Oh, sorry, I was sidetracked… Won’t you please come in? Are you hungry? I just ordered a pizza and don’t think I’ll finish it all by myself.”

“Why certainly, I’d love some.” Bobby responded with a smile.

So they sat down at the dinner table together to eat the pizza. While they were eating, they started general conversation to learn more about each other.

“I’m so glad the Red Sox swept the Yankees last week,” Bobby said.

“Yes, that was a pretty pathetic three days for those Yankees, they really showed how bad they were,” Linda agreed.

Well, he’s a Red Sox fan, and he’s also a Ste. Marie’s Parishioner, that’s two pluses on your side, go for three, ask him to the party!“Hey Bobby…” Linda began… “ I know all you came here to do was sell a set of boring encyclopedias, and we just met and all… but I have a surprise birthday party to go to tonight at the Executive Court Yard and was wondering if you’d like to be my date for the evening?”


Bobby was lost for words at first, and then managed to say he’d love to.

“Great, the party starts at 7PM, I’m guessing that’s when Mandy is expected to arrive, and I want to get a good seat near the door to watch her come in, so how about I pick you up for 6:15?” Linda said, with excitement.

“Oh no, please allow me the pleasure of picking YOU up, after all, the man usually picks up his date,” Bobby said with a smile. “Is this a formal party?”

“Yes, it is. There’s dancing as well.” Linda answered.

“Alright!” Bobby screeched! “I haven’t been dancing since my wife passed away last year, I’ll see you back here at promptly 6:15.”

And with that, Bobby skipped out the door, and Linda watched as Bobby bounced down the driveway.

“Well, I made someone happy, now it’s time to go back to work,” Linda said to herself as she went back to the taxicab. Even after that her next call didn’t come in for another hour and a half. So she took the free time to visit people she hadn’t seen in a while and called people on her cell phone to tell them about her new beau that she had met randomly at her doorstep.

Finally a call came in for her to go get someone at a grocery store. So she hung up her cell phone and drove the grocery store customer to her house and helped unload groceries. Since she had no other people waiting she might as well make use of her time.

Finally, it was 5:30 and Linda was allowed to park the cab for the night and go home to get ready. She hadn’t planned on going with anyone so she had her dress and stuff in a duffle bag to get dressed before she left the station. But now Bobby was going with her and thankfully her replacement got there early, so she grabbed her duffle bag and threw it into her Toyota Matrix and drove herself home to get ready. She was so excited. She was done getting ready by 6:05 and had 10 minutes to wait for Bobby. She never even asked what kind of car he had, but she was sure it was better than her dented Toyota.

“Gosh, I hope Bobby likes my outfit,” Linda said as she twirled around in her pretty red dress.

Just then the doorbell rang and she knew it had to be Bobby.

“He’s early!” Linda shouted.

“She ran to the door to answer it and couldn’t wait to see Bobby all dressed up. When she answered the door, she was still not prepared for what she saw. There was Bobby, tall, and extremely handsome, in a very formal black tux with a rose corsage on his coat. And a matching one in a box for Linda. He took her hand and led her out with a smile to their waiting car…

He owns a Lexus! Holy crap, enjoy this night and do everything in your power to keep this man!

So they enjoyed the ride to the restaurant and were one of the first people there, getting a perfect spot in the room. When Many walked in, she was totally surprised. The DJ was awesome and played anything you wanted done. After they sang Happy Birthday to Mandy and had food, Linda went up to the DJ to see if they had “In The Mood,” which was an old swing dance song that, through conversations, Bobby had mentioned, was his wife’s favorite song to dance to. He did have it, and Bobby and Linda danced the night away, and the rest, as they say, was history. Maybe the next time an encyclopedia set was printed, they’d be in it.



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Today's Question (Mosaic)

Today’s Question


Yelling, screaming… hitting and smacking. My life

Thoughts reeling through my head. Live…die, which to choose?

There are so many ways I could do this.

Knives, pills, ropes… jump, roadways and freight trains.

Dreams…shattered. Life…ruined. Relationship…shot down.

Dreams shattered forever. College and career, marriage and children…gone.

Bleeding and dying, I’m finally going to a place where I no longer hurt.

No more crying and no more tears. Fear…oppression…gone. Replaced with the crown of forgiveness.

But wait… family and friends, teachers, co-workers…shocked, saddened, shattered.

Selfish…yes, quite at this point. Would I really deserve that crown of forgiveness? Have I really been forgiven?

Friends… Rose, Sue, and Marlena and Colleen… Crying, uncontrollable. Devastated.

Family… Mom, Sue…Carol, Dennis, Tyler… John, Cheryl…Confused. Why did she do this? What was she thinking? What hurt her so bad?

Teachers… surprised, shocked, angry… Mrs. Langer, Mrs. Stratton, Francoeur, Tafe, Flurey… such potential to make a difference in the world, she made a difference in ours.

Co-workers…lost. No more jokes, or movie nights… no more laughs when they were needed and no more “not on my shift” lines. Gone forever.

Enemies… Aubrey and Bill, Mrs. Adams… will not miss her at all, thank gosh she’s gone, we won’t miss her, she wouldn’t mount to anything anyways.

To live… or not to live, that is the question at hand.

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    Good Hearted Woman

Lenten Argument

Lenten argument


Well, we’re in lent again.I am so excited to read at the 7PM mass tonight for Ash Wednesday. I’m going to get there extra early to make sure I’m guaranteed a spot.


Excuse me, this is your mind speaking, I’m functioning on barely 4 hours of sleep here, and you expect me to be able to function properly to read without a nap?

Well… Patrick is sleeping, so I think I’m going to go lay down and take a snooze until 5. That should be sufficient enough.

Mandy, there’s something bothering Sue… call her now.

Call Sue, yeah I need to call Sue… maybe later I’m sleeping.


Wow, you’re awfully demanding this afternoon aren’t we? Zzzz….

Well at least I slept for 15 minutes; I can’t sleep anymore, now I’ll…

Ring, Ring…

Well I don’t have to call her now, because she’s calling me. Or at least I think it’s her, yep it is.

So Bill told Sue that they no longer want her in the group because her brain tumor has caused her vocal power to disintegrate. Bill also told Sue that 90% of the people auditioning on Sunday afternoon have not even a slim chance of getting in. She’s balling her eyes out on the phone.

He what! Why that little @$$hole I’ll show him that you don’t mess with my friends like that, there are going to be fireworks after mass and they are not going to be very pleasant.What could I possibly have said to Sue to make her feel better at that point? She now has me crying too, because I know I’m in that 90% range.


All right Mandy, this is your big moment, I’ve been telling you all week that this is not where I want you, your voice deserves better usage, and now this is the icing on the cake, go for it!Yep, I’m not auditioning on Sunday, and I’m letting him know as nice as I possibly can act. I told Sue that no matter how much it hurts her to do it, walk by that stage with her head held high and a smile on her face, because if they see that, they’ll know she has the power to take in whatever they dish at her and nothing will get her down. I told her I loved her, and I’d be here for her whenever she needed someone, I even offered to sit with her and not read, but she insisted that I read, and I did, I took the first reading because it described what me and her were going through together at that time, and I portrayed the emotion very well.


And as for Bill, he is going to wish he never opened his mouth to Sue, because now he has to deal with me, and I’m moody for some reason, and quite cranky due to only getting four hours of sleep. He is going to wish he never even asked if I was ready for Sunday. If he says anything to me or even looks at me, he’s done.

So I walked up to church at 6:30, expecting the 5:30 mass to be somewhat finished… nope, mass didn’t end until 6:45. So once mass was officially done I started the task as lead lector, getting books set up and prepared and checking my own reading. Bill came into the chapel to set up his guitar and go on stage, he looks at me and says hello. I say nothing in response. He walks away, and I hear him whisper something to one of the lead singers, Mary Kate.

Looks like you scared him away, nice job! You’re handling this quite well. Keep your cool, don’t rat him out after mass, be the kind person you always are, even though you want to ring his neck around the nearest poll.

Boy would I ever. Mass proceeds and as we pass the stage in the procession, our eyes meet, mine misty from tears starting to well up. The same thing happens at the end of mass. After I grab my stuff, I go over to Sue and say I’m going to do what I have to do, pray for me that I don’t over react.

Now remember, be gentle with him, he’s a guy, his feelings get hurt easily.

I call him over to the corner, and simply say with a smile and a little shake in my voice, that I do not agree with the way he’s treating Sue, and that we’re not up here to perform a concert, we’re hear to sing for the Lord, and if that is what he’s after is a concert band, then he should go and find another place to direct. I also asked him nicely about the 90% of the people auditioning not making the cut, and I asked if I was one of that 90% and he said unfortunately, yes you are one of the people that will not make it. And at that point I just said thank you, then take me off your list and save yourself the hassle of hearing me for no reason. I’ve been rejected five times within the past year, and I’m not about to make it six with a stupid group like this one. I’ll be praying for you, because you obviously need prayer to help strengthen your leadership abilities. And with that stormed away to go find Sue, at this point just letting all the tears of frustration that have been building up since the beginning of mass fly out on her shoulder.

Well done, good and faithful servant, that is exactly what you needed to say, and I am proud that you help out so tough.






  • Current Music
    Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

Random update

+ Hey guys,
this is just a random blurb, no writing pieces. But every Thursday im going to post a different one, i have a few more to add and then i'll be done for a while. Well ok more than a few. But anywho.
11 days left for Seniors 07!!!! Yahoo! it's really kicking in now and i'm so pyched for graduation. I want to get out of there so bad. Tomorrow night is my last chorus concert (performing in it anyways). It'll be a sad night but a fun one as well. we're doing some amusing songs, such as Frim Fram Sauce, a song about a food that doesn't exist... "Cumana" which is a spicy Vensulaian piece, and "Old Dan Tucker" which is a hoedown song. That one i must say is the most interesting to watch.
On Friday my outdoor prayer workshop starts it's 1st night out of 14, and i am so pysched. I have 24 students signed up, plus the Young Adult Ministry is sending about 5 or 6 people to check it out. Just thought i'd post to say hey!
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    My Hometown

Evangelizing The Islands

Evangelizing the Islands

All right, I’m finally on my own getaway island, with Sue and Rose, the three musketeers from Ste. Marie’s, coming to the islands to evangelize. This is going to be so much fun, I wonder how everyone at Ste. Marie’s is doing.
Let’s go for a swim before we start socializing and evangelizing, after all this is supposed to be a vacation as well as a mission.
So we went for a swim. The water was so nice and warm, and crystal clear! The water really did look like it was blue! This is going to be an awesome week.
Remember Mandy, you’re not here to relax the whole week, and you have work to do.
Yeah, I know I have work to do, but I just got here. Well, I guess the first thing we should do that’ll really help us is to find the nearest Catholic Church, or a list of them to see if we can set up meeting dates with the parishes.
Why did father Marc pick us to go on this mission trip? We’re not the evangelization team!
So I open up the phone book and there’s no catholic churches listed.
Oh Lord, please tell me there’s at least one Catholic Church down here! There has to be, or else father Marc wouldn’t have sent us… or would he?
I know, let’s go to the library they must have some books or directory numbers that we could use.
You have to find the library first you dummy!
Why is my brain calling me a dummy? Who gave him the authority to be mean? Why I’ll show him!
Ah-ha! I found it, church of the Holy Spirit… yippee! And it’s charismatic too this is going to be so easy…wait…maybe?
OK, now that we have that… time to go meet with these people and see what they don’t already know
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    Cherry Cherry

If Only/ But Really Poetry

If only time could freeze
But really, it marches right along.
If only the world would get along
But really that’ll never happen.
If only friends could last forever
But really we all die sometimes.
If only people could realize the harm they’re causing
But really they’ll continue being ignorant.
If only snow could stay away
But really, it’s New Hampshire.

If only summer could stay year-round
But really winter must set in.
If only the sun could shine all day
But really darkness must arrive.
If only a little happiness could hit my life
But really happiness is just a dream.
If only I could turn back time
But really I know I can’t.
If only I could see you again
But really I know you’re happy.
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Haiku/Acrostic Poetry

First summer morning:

The sun shines bright on the bay

Singing in the rain

Church bells are ringing

Christmas time is here again

Only without snow

Many people call me

Animated and thought-provoking

Not many people know what’s behind the laughs

Do they really want to know?

Yes, they should, I’ve gone through a lot to get to being animated.

Sing songs of praise to the Lord

In the morning

Never ceasing

Going strong

Into evening


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    Old Rivers